Free To Be Me..

For the past couple of years, I've been searching...and questioning 'truth.' Through my blog, I've met many wonderful people...mostly Christians who encouraged me, and I in turn encouraged them. I've written posts regarding my beliefs, but near the end...my beliefs in god, christianity turned into disbelief. I stepped away from my first blog...You Better Recognize (YBR).

I've been away from YBR because I have grown...disillusioned.

GDisillusioned with Christianity, and disillusioned with 'God.' This journey did not happen overnight. I've searched the bible, prayed to god, sought help from pastors etc.

I've come to this conclusion: Religion is bullshit. I no longer believe in god...of any kind.

I must admit, I've never, ever felt more free. In speaking with religious people in real time, the conversation was mostly positive. Of course, there were those who felt I was traumatized by some life-altering event. For the record, I haven't been raped, my children weren't killed by a serial killer-or victims of black on black crimes...I chose to question.

I am still Bria...i'm just Bria former christian, turned Atheist.

Quoting scriptures and telling me I'm destined for hell is ineffective and counterproductive.

I knew I was on my way to Atheism, when I would be asked to pray for people...and it was IMPOSSIBLE to do as I no longer believed prayer worked. I believed prayer was and/is a coping mechanism-but that's MY opinion. Instead of saying 'no, I won't pray for you,' I simply said, 'girl, you know you're going to be fine :)'

And they were.

I'm not a satanist, and I'm not using Atheism as a means to do what I want. I am not amoral contrary to the belief of many Christians & their stereotypes. I simply do not believe the bible is 'inspired', I refuse to serve a 'god' who sees us as nothing more than puppets, and I most certainly will not be bullied into worship a god who threatens to toss me into a fiery inferno for choosing to say, 'No Thanks,'- but if someone rapes, tortures, kills a small child-then utters the words 'I Accept Jesus as Lord as Savior'..they're absolved-are you kidding me??

I know this is disconcerting for my online Christian friends. I know many of you will have nothing to do with me-and I'm ok with that. I wish you nothing but peace & love.

I am not here to 'convert' or debate my stance. You either accept it..or you don't.

With or without YOUR approval...I am still free!

Thank you for your inspiration, Lori :)

More to come...